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I have so much stuff to do and prepare for and not enough money or good karma to do it with.
That and my little brothers are driving me insane! One of them is ten and is going through that awkward/annoying I'm-not-quite-a-teen-but-I'll-act-all-angsty-anyways phase. So he's taking it out on everybody around him (not that it has no merit 'cause my mom and ex-stepthingy are getting a divorce) and IT'S DRIVING ME UP THE WALL.
As for the stuff I gotta do, I have to get an apartment, convince someone in my family to co-sign a loan, build up my portfolio and get a job. The first one is going...well I suppose, but is connected to the second one as I want to use the money I'd usually pay for a dorm to pay for a waaaaay cheaper apartment. BUT THAT'S HARD TO DO WHEN EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY THINKS I'M IMMATURE. Which is...very much true. The portfolio thing goes as well as it can but I need to actually finish shit before I can say that I've accomplished something. The job thing....well I've never had much luck in getting a job on my own. I'll try, I'll always try, but it never carries through...
I'm just so frustrated right now. I just want my problems to be solved. I just want a life of my own, that's all. I'll do anything to know everything will be alright.
Somebody....help.
That and my little brothers are driving me insane! One of them is ten and is going through that awkward/annoying I'm-not-quite-a-teen-but-I'll-act-all-angsty-anyways phase. So he's taking it out on everybody around him (not that it has no merit 'cause my mom and ex-stepthingy are getting a divorce) and IT'S DRIVING ME UP THE WALL.
As for the stuff I gotta do, I have to get an apartment, convince someone in my family to co-sign a loan, build up my portfolio and get a job. The first one is going...well I suppose, but is connected to the second one as I want to use the money I'd usually pay for a dorm to pay for a waaaaay cheaper apartment. BUT THAT'S HARD TO DO WHEN EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY THINKS I'M IMMATURE. Which is...very much true. The portfolio thing goes as well as it can but I need to actually finish shit before I can say that I've accomplished something. The job thing....well I've never had much luck in getting a job on my own. I'll try, I'll always try, but it never carries through...
I'm just so frustrated right now. I just want my problems to be solved. I just want a life of my own, that's all. I'll do anything to know everything will be alright.
Somebody....help.
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